I don't know about you, but I am not especially gifted with patience and waiting under certain circumstances. That being said, the more I pray for the opportunity to increase in virtue, the more the good Lord sees fit to answer my requests! Ouch! As "they" say, be careful what you pray for. LOL.
My first week of Advent was mostly spent tethered to my couch or the bed trying to cope with yet another migraine marathon of epic proportion which unleashed its reign of terror on my body for days and nights on end. Waiting was the only thing (besides begging and praying ) that I could actually do. I sure had other plans for that first week---like decorating just a bit, looking up some fun cookie recipes, getting some organization to my Christmas lists, and preparing for an upcoming trip for the holidays to visit family, to name just a few. But, no, my body and its illness had other plans.
So, my waiting began...
wait for the meds to work
wait for the time to take the next dose
wait to be able to open my eyes enough to see where I am going
wait for the passing of the many awful neurological symptoms to abate enough to even move
wait for my husband to come home from work to help me in my fragile state
and on and on the waiting went... minutes seemed like hours and days were lost.
All the while I waited, I definitely prayed and prayed hard. I actually did reflect a lot about Advent and how Mary must have felt as she waited those months and days before giving birth to our Savior and then waiting for a place to even labor and bring Jesus into this world.
My struggles are teaching me valuable lessons on waiting. Waiting can be productive and redemptive if I allow it. Waiting slows me down and teaches me to live with a more purposeful and intentional mindset. While I do still pray for healing and certainly much better management of my current chronic conditon, I am always amazed at my ongoing transformation in the journey.
Even if you are not celebrating Christmas due to your own background and tradition, can you still find value in waiting through your own struggles? Is waiting easy or hard for you? Maybe helping someone else who might be having a hard time waiting for one reason or another right now would be a great gift to offer this time of year. Any easing of suffering in the waiting, I can assure you, would be a most generous gift of the heart.
I decided to call my new orchid "Advent Orchid" as it started to
bloom while I waited. It bloomed patiently and silently.
I love learning from Mother Nature as well.