The BIG 60---gulp! For several months before turning 60 in April, I was having my share of little freak outs. Sounds silly, but for some reason, I could not fathom facing a new decade. To me, 60 just sounded "old". It is all a matter of perspective with many complex factors involved. People say that it is "just a number" and "who really cares"? Statements like those are relatively true, but I gave myself permission to muse in disbelief.
My 50's decade was marred by the fact I spent much of it in a horizontal posture on the couch instead of vertical enjoying life to its fullest. There were many highs and lows, but as I approached 60, my boundaries started to widen, and my spirits felt renewed. Personal changes were occurring, and as hubby and I decided to make a big life move, I felt as if I could hike my Matterhorn far more steadily than ever before.
Let me say now, I am definitely embracing 60 (even with all of the daily aches, pains, and creaky joints)! My sweet husband, with the help of other wonderful family members, threw a spectacular birthday surprise party for me (of which I did not want) but forgave him anyway because it all was wonderful. He put so much planning and hard work into it, complete with tiny lies for my sake. I felt humbled and honored by family, friends, and neighbors who brought so much joy to the gathering! It was as though magic happened, and once I actually turned 60, no more feeling down about it. The new number arrived and that was that.
My other big 60 moment was stepping out of my comfort zone and finally getting a tattoo of which I have wanted for over a year. And get a tattoo I did! What better theme than a picture of the Matterhorn Mountain in relation to my memoir? This tattoo is deeply personal, and it is another way to advocate for migraine disease. I even made sure it has a splash of purple on top! Not sure of the many different opinions and reactions there will be, but that doesn't matter. It is special to me, and for that, I am grateful I had it done. My sweet goddaughter told me that not only does she "love it" but that she likes the fact I wear my "badge of courage" on my arm. Well said, Monica. Thank you.
My recent time around the sun has been great overall. My birthday wishes and celebrations have all been so meaningful, and I appreciate every one of them. Thanks to everyone for always making me feel special.
Life is hard. Life is messy. Life is beautiful.
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